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Debilitating Disability

The social security disability and SSI processes are ironically crippling.

It's been over a year and a half and they keep telling me they don't have substantial evidence to make a decision on my disability 🤦🏿‍♀️, I wish I could sue them. I know it's normal but normal doesn't make it okay. How can a system intended to assist those in need be so diabolical and debilitating? Almost every governmental asistance program is fundamentally or intentionally flawed. It's your prospective that will determine which is which.

I Thank God I have reliable people in my corner because it's a struggle for me so I can only imagine what others who don't have the needed support are going through. It's also a blessing to have the wherewithal to know a little about budgeting and managing money. There is still a need for me to learn how to get out of debt without depleting funds as well as generating passive income while disabled. 

Maybe in the near future I will find a way to assist people who are in limbo with severe disabilities like me or worse.  There is room for me to learn to develope a system for people who are physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted to still generate wealth.

I feel like after becoming disabled people have no consideration for the goals that a person had prior to their disability.

I get angry thinking about not only me but the countless other people who may not have the mental fortitude to follow through with all of this. Then there are the people who can't and resort to legal representation and they take a large portion of their funds once they get it. It's predatory and I hate that it's just become commonplace.

It's not cheap being disabled with kids, one of which is in college. It's nerve-wracking that his and others' future could be determined by this broken system.

Not only is it not cheap, it's mentally draining. There's always some paperwork that needs to be done, some appointment that needs to be made and someplace that needs to be gotten to. There is only so much that people can do with limited resources and people are one of those resources. All help isn't good help. There are people that may be willing to help but aren't capable of doing so. Or going through a disability you may sometimes find that you just can't afford to be around certain energies at certain times so you digress.... 
I hope that we can find a way to uplift and support by those going through this process because some day I just want to quit trying. There's so much unaccounted for in the processes of disability and other assistances. Keep pushing and if you know someone who has to fight this same fight, be there for them. 

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